Opportunities and Challenges

The end of the coming week will make 6 weeks here in Madagascar-the halfway point of my trip. There is much about this adventure that has been fun, and definitely some challenging things.

I posted a video of pictures that my I-phone put together. Everyone posted good thoughts about how wonderful it is that I’m having such a wonderful time. Much has been good but it is not all wonderful all of the time.

Living on the ship is a mixture of being with people all the time and at the same time being pretty lonely. There are people around all of the time. People are very friendly and generally kind. I can always find someone to eat dinner with. At the same time I am spending a lot of time by myself. I had connected with one of the nurses that I travelled here with, but she has gone home to Australia. I have had one roommate since my first week here. She is young nurse, is really nice, and has been on Mercy ships several times. She also has LOTS of friends so is out and about with them all of the time, and her work schedule is different than mine. I had a second roommate for the last 3 weeks. She left yesterday. She was not in the room much, spending a lot of time in the sewing room. Today I am gaining 3 more roommates. I’m hopeful that at least one of them might be someone that I really click with.

Another thing that contributes to feeling less connected is the form of Christianity on the ship. I go to a pretty liberal Presbyterian church. When we used to say the “our Father” prayer we began it with “Our Maker, our Mother, our Father who art in heaven”. We see the bible as being a book of questions and Paradox. Mercy ships is more of an evangelical organization on the more conservative end of the spectrum. It is very clear that there are rules about how Christianity is practiced and that anyone who does not follow those rules is not “doing it right. They see the bible as literally God’s words. Every day begins with prayer or people giving their testimony of when the accepted Jesus. It is just a lot for me, all of the time. I knew this going into the trip. I just did not understand that it would make me feel so isolated and like an imposter. I put myself here, so I am trying to make the best of things. I don’t want to rock the boat (metaphorically). I’m not here to tell anyone else how to believe.

The physical therapy has been rewarding and challenging. It is kind of fun to be doing hospital based PT again (Getting people out of beds and moving around). I have also been having lots of fun being silly with the pediatric patients. And, I am seeing lots of kids who have been burned in the past who undergo surgical release of scar tissue and new skin grafts. This is not care that I have ever done in the past. So, despite all of my years of experience, I am and feel like a novice. Luckily I also see outpatients- people working on the ship who need PT. This is something that I’m pretty comfortable with.

Madagascar is kind of heartbreaking, much like Haiti. The people are lovely, full of strong faith. The patients are very happy and grateful that they have been chosen to have surgery. It is also very much of place where most of the people have limited opportunities. The health care is poor. The education system appears to be all private and thus costs money. there are many people living and begging on the streets. There are some nice facilities but mostly a lot of burned out or dilapidated buildings. It is very much a place of the “have” and “have nots”.

So, those are my ramblings this week. Just putting some reality to go with all of the happy pictures on Facebook and Instagram. Here are some pictures from my past couple of weeks… It is me on the beach with some of the folks that I arrived with, a Boabab tree and vials of antibiotics for sale in the Bazaar!

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  1. anthonystamper Avatar

    Hi Ann, your insights remain interesting. I totally understand your limited interactions regarding Christianity. We had similar limited interactions when we lived in New Zealand and attended an evangelical Anglican church. For us, this meant we nodded a lot but rarely expressed religious opinions. We’ve had similar interactions with Mormons in the States. Good luck!

    I suspect that part of your social issues are age related. I have had similar feelings of loneliness during language classes in France, where most students are under 30.

    Best, Tony

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  2. Lori - Art Avatar

    Thanks Ann, for sharing from your heart. If we are honest as you are, most experiences such as this are always in shades of gray rather than black and white. Not all good and not all bad. You described this so beautifully and we now all have a better sense of your experience. Know that you are not alone. All of us are thinking of you and sending you love and strength for the lonely times and we share your joy in the good times! You are an amazing woman!!

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  3. Sue Brooks Avatar

    Thank you, Ann, for your honest description of the ups and downs of your experience. I appreciate you keeping us up to date on what you have been doing and how it’s going. I am sorry but not surprised that you feel lonely at times. Where you are and the circumstances of your work is totally out of your experience. PT has been your career, but working with burns is all new. Plus you are by yourself without your family and community nearby. I hope it helps to know that your CCP community is with you 100%. We admire your courage and selflessness. We prayed for you in Joys & Concerns today. I hope you could feel the loving vibes across the many many miles. As to feeling like an “imposter:” You are doing this as an act of love. In my opinion, love is the great leveler and trumps differences in belief every time.

    Take care, my friend. Sue

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  4. dolphinfried7da1a5c9b6 Avatar

    I still can’t se

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  5. g.paul Avatar

    Thinking of you and hoping you’re able to make some connections. It does make a difference to have someone to spend the time with.
    -Gretchen

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